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Hi Nissi, you are a member of the Lord`s church, right? If yes, you might know what to do in my situation... In my church I started working in Hospitality, but since I know about how to keep Sunday holy and Jesus prohibits us to SELL food or Christian books, I tried to work in another area. My leader didn`t want to let me leave that ministry, I had not been asked even if I would like to work there... anyways, I told her the reason, quite exactly quoted Jesus words literally; my pastors heard of it and got furious... accusing me to not support their vision etc, even one of the pastors yelling into my face "That`s from the DEVIL! and that even the devil is coming up with scriptures... I was calm first, just swallowed, did not try to take it personal, only was sad and hurt because I know they have rejected God. Well, after that incident, in the following days, (there was a spiritual "nanny" in my life who is trying to dictate me or "raise" me spiritually although she is an "unbeliever", she always has to say something to take my joy, peace and make my faith down, or "correct" me the wrong way, denying things the Lord has said, even my translation was a thorn in her eyes... taking lots of my time that I was supposed to spend for my translation....) that lady kinda interfered into this problem for a reason, made me look dumb and crazy, that`s how my pastor even called me, strange, weird...I bet she is saying that because of Pastor Kims bookd that I gave to her and her husband... So I got mad and more made, I finally kinda lost my temper and finally said that I would not come to this church again, I kinda felt this was right - to show loyalty to the Lord, but when I said this, I was just furious. This said, the whole situation went even worse, my private emails were exposed to the pastors and leaders, some friends were forbidden to keep in touch with me, I kinda feel "excommunicated". First I thought, ok, I will find a new church, but I am not happy with those I had been attending the past few weeks, I am looking for a new home but cannot find one - they`re all so dead! I miss my old church, it was a spirit-filled church, with lots of prayer, tithes and offering, healing, Bible Study etc. I can`t find anything close to that. There was one church I thought God wants me to go to, but I am not sure if my dreams came from God, but I had several dreams where I could conclude that God doesnt want me to go back to my old church - that way I would only "give in and bow under" their "reign" (there is lots of control, accusations, fingerpointing and backstabbing, that`s the only minus) so I would say that they were right and I was wrong, although God cannot be wrong! And two, I remember reading "Heaven is so real" by Choo Nam Thomas; one pastor of a particular church didnt allow her to dance her spiritual dance, and the Lord told her to leave that church, although it was a very good church - that was the main reason why I have left this church, too. But I still miss going to this church, the service and the people were nice in general, also the teachings. I miss it and I am thinking to go back, but of course I dont want to be disobedient to God, if God says, I shouldnt go back, I dont want to - for now, I am just not 100% sure. I feel like I am spiritually dying. I am listening to praise and worship songs an d to teachings as I used to before I went to church again after a long pause, getting back on track and walk with God, but the past few Sunday services in other churches only make me cry!! I feel so dry, I wanna be in a good church where I can grow spiritually. We have so many churches here, already have checked out many, but all are kinda dead more or less. I am frustrated. Please help, keep me up in prayer, I feel very vulnerable to the enemy now. I am trying to keep Sundays holy as required, thats why I just go to any church on sundays, but my attendance in those churches are so in vain because the Holy Spirit aint there, just entertainment, not even worship - I could cry. Please pray for me that God will CLEARLY, with absolutely no doubt give me direction and tell me what to do. THANK YOU! Shalom to Pastor Yong-Doo Kim and the whole congregation. Sara ps: Is Jesus still visiting you? Could you maybe ask Him for me?? I don큧 know actually, if I may make such a request?
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